Hello everyone, I decided to give these forums a shot just because it’s 2AM, I’m burnt out on writing, and thought it’d be cool to get to know other writers.
I’ve been working on this story for the past year or so, and it’s gotten a bit precious to me but at the same time it’s getting difficult. It seems the closer I get to finishing, the more self doubt I find.
“Am I writing a good story?” “Would this be entertaining?” “Will this make any meaningful impact to anyone?”
I don’t necessarily know exactly what this has to do with anything, but I figure it can’t hurt to just type. Type about writing for the sake of it, maybe others are going through similar things.
I find writing these days like typing through mud, because even when I’m fitting new scenes into the story, I feel like I’m scrutinizing every single line. “Does this add anything, does this mean anything, does this connect to anything, is this information the reader knows, does this contradict anything?” etc. etc.
Hard to write when you feel the pressure of continuity eggshells all around you.
Guess in general I’m just feeling a lot of self doubt, and less and less eager to show people what I’ve got going on, which feels weird. It’s gotten to the point where I just want to start new projects to fill my time where I can’t think of what to write with my big one.
However my big one is so close to being completed with some level of polish I just feel like I’m stalling, just unable or unwilling to see this to completion.
Sometimes I look at what I’m doing with my story and maybe I’m jaded, but it really feels like dry, crappy, this and that. Though everyone I’ve shown snippets to said they love it. Guess that’s the curse of being a writer huh?
Anyways I should probably stop rambling, a pleasure to meet you all, and if anyone is interested in offering some words of wisdom that would be super awesome.
Happy Holidays!